Jeff Nesvig

Toby and Juan


Softly and slowly the footsteps came to the door

And as she opened the door

I stood there wanting to be invited inside

To fill the holes in my soul and dry the tears that she cried.

 

All the days that she spent alone her home

She only remembers the name of one man when she prays

And she remembers the days when he would smile and say

 

Three more years and I’ll be coming home to stay

Then we can spend all of our days and nights together

And tell each other stories about life while I was adrift on the sea

And Ester you have to know I love you and think of you and kids everyday

But soon I’ll be coming home so tell the kids I’ll be home soon to stay.

 

Her friends all called her Toby because she grew up on the farm

Fourteen kids and everyone had to toe the line to make the farm a home

And to feed the family’s needs

So she worked hard and waited for her own  life to begin.

 

Then one day she met him waiting in line at the old general store

He was handsome and sharp dressed up in his navy blues

When he asked her what her name was she could hardly say a word

But she managed to mumble Toby as she looked from the floor to his eyes

And they both knew they felt a love that they couldn’t hide

 

He said my name is Juan and I sail the seven seas

I fought in the big one cause my country needed me

I’ll make our life in the navy Toby if you will have me.

 

Well he fought in the big one and Korea then Vietnam too

He brought her home gifts from all over the world

And after three kids he told her I love you more everyday

And soon Toby I’ll be coming home to stay

 

Three more years and I’ll be coming home to stay

Then we can spend all of our days and nights together

And tell each other stories about life while I was a drift on the sea

And Ester you have to know I love you and think of you and kids everyday

But soon I’ll be coming home so tell the kids I’ll be home soon to stay.

 

On his way home from a deployment that he counted the days

To hold his wife and his kids and it was less than a day

Just a few short miles and his heart gave away

And his car went down a bank as he passed away.

 

And she remembered one name as she knelt and prayed

And she still remembers when he would smile and say

Just three more years Toby and I’ll be home to stay.



I love you, too


I don’t share my heart

I can’t feel the things you feel

I’ve tried one time before but it hurt too much inside

So don’t tell me that you love me

I’ve played this game before.

 

I’ll play my guitar for you

I’ll sing a pretty song

But that’s all that I can do

But don’t tell me that you love me

Because there is too much pain if I say I love you too.

 

Winter nights and the fire inside

The moon is low under a blanket of stars

And I can see the love in your eyes

But all I can do is play this guitar for you.

 

I can sing a song of loneliness

Play a pretty song for you

But I just can’t say I love you too

I’ve been down that road before.

 

So she played a pretty song for me

She played to the moon and stars

A song of loneliness and dreams that will never come true

And love that went too far.

 

But I could see the fear in her eyes as she played a song for me

With her trembling hands and worried mind

She sang a song of loneliness

She played a pretty song for me as she cried

So wiped the tears from her eyes and told her I love you too.

 

 

Jeff Nesvig is a writer living in San Diego.


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